KKN.. mata kuliah paling absurd sedunia. Bobotnya ga lebih dari 2 sks. Pertemuannya? 40 hari tanpa jajan di Kopma, atau ngumpul bareng temen-temen sekelas. 40 hari itu akan baik-baik saja kalau tidak bertepatan dengan bulan puasa. H-5 lebaran, baru dibolehkan bubar. Come on, gak ada SP kan? Kenapa harus H-5 baru di rumah (lagi)? Bodohnya, aku gak memilih KKN yang lokasinya di rumah banget. Yah, sudahlah.. sudah menjadi takdir. Mau diapakan lagi. Mau demo sambil bakar ban dan gigit-gigit pager di depan gedung LPPM buat menghapuskan KKN? Heyya, are ya high or sumthin'?
Dan sekarang tinggal H-5 sebelum memulai reality show Big Brother atau .. ethnic runaway? Aku belum mempersiapkan apa-apa. Ibu justru yang sedari kemarin menelfonku dan menanyakan keperluan apa saja yang kubutuhkan. Aku seolah masih tidak percaya bahwa KKN itu benar-benar nyata seperti nama kepanjangannya: Kuliah Kerja NYATA.
Teman-teman KKN ku seem nice.. parahnya aku malah ketakutan kalau-kalau malah aku nanti yang mengacau dan berbuat onar selama KKN. Bagaimana kalau rona mukaku salah diinterpretasikan orang lain yang notabene baru bertemu 3 kali? Kalau aku sedang diam, temanku pasti bilang "Muka lo busuk banget sih Deb." atau "Mukanya biasa aja dong! Kayak ngajak ribut." Itu semua adalah pendapat dari beberapa teman sekelasku yang sudah 'hidup berdampingan' denganku selama 3 tahun. Masalah ini mungkin hanya bisa dihadapi dengan 2 cara. Yang pertama, nyengir setiap saat. Jika itu tidak berhasil, aku akan menggunakan usaha pamungkas: berdoa semoga Alloh membuat wajahku terlihat seperti orang ramah di mata orang lain. Aamiin!
Dan hal ini -menulis semua ini disini- sangatlah menyenangkan. Aku mencoba menceritakan ini pada teman-temanku, tapi yang keluar dari mulutku hanya "ga mau KKN!" secara berulang-ulang. (God, thankyou for making the existence of what-so-called writing on this earth)
Yah, segitu dulu curhatnya.
Semangat ngefinalize TEYL..
Semangat seminarnya..
Semangat KKNnya..
Semangat pulang ke Rajapolah!!
Tuesday, 18 June 2013
Remain
Siapa yang bisa jamin kalau hanya dengan selama satu tahun kamu
gak tertarik untuk mencari tahu apa yang terjadi dan gak ketemu
sama seseorang, kamu bakalan sukses amnesia tentang orang itu? Jawabannya, Tuhan, bila Ia mengijinkan.
Dan pertanyaan itu berakhir disini.
"So nice to see your face again
Tell me how long has it been
Since you've been here..
You look so different than before
But still the person I adore
Frozen with fear..
I'm out of love but I'll take it from the past
I'll let out words cause I'm sure It'll never last.."
(Gotten - Slash feat. Adam Levine)
Monday, 3 June 2013
Forbidden Song
"Cause I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
Cause she will love you more than I could
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
Cause she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood"
(Where I Stood - Missy Higgins)
It seems that the lyrics have no sophisticated
diction, doesn't it? But this song is a forbidden song for me for about a week
ahead.. nah.. two weeks I guess. There is a matter I wanna share with you about
the reason why I nominate this song to be forbidden.
Several days ago, I was so addicted to the love
story of Chloe Sullivan and Jimmy Olsen. Got a clue? Yes, I was addicted to
Smallville, only certain seasons actually. I just fell in love with this
couple. I knew that Chloe will marry Oliver Queen in the end of the whole story
(and, indeed, I hate that part). But I just preferred Jimmy rather than Ollie.
So, I downloaded the three seasons where Jimmy occurs. And this song just came
up in the season 7, where Chloe broke up with Jimmy. And I was just sort of..
sad, and cried a little. Exaggerating, don’t you think? Me either. But it was
the truth. At first, I loved this song playing on my phone repeatedly. Later, I
realized, this song hypnotized me. When I heard this song, there would be some
flashes on my head when the two were breaking up and some other flashes showing
Jimmy’s death. When that happened, I was so angry, “Why didn’t they just become
a fine couple before Jimmy dead?!” Then
this song started to control my feelings, and ruin my mood. When my mood goes
down.. I can foresee I will do nothing and neglect anything, including working
on my assignments. Because I have to kill my assignments anytime soon, this
song is forbidden for me for a while.
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Chloe and Jimmy's wedding (well, some minutes before it was ruined by Davis Bloom) |
Pict source: http://www.zap2it.com/media/photo/2009-10/49723121.jpg
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